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Finding Sunny                                    本文中文版

How would I identify myself? This has been the eternal question I’ve spent a lifetime searching for.

My story begins in Taiwan, where I was born and raised. My mother, a caretaker by action but not by words, had a youth full of trauma. I learned early that my needs were insignificant next to hers, and I became a closet rebel under her regime. While I now admire her resourcefulness, her treatment had a lasting neurological impact on how I saw myself. My father was a lovely man who saw me as precious, but he didn't know how to connect with a wild, depressed teenager. He died when I was 19, leaving a quiet space between us.

My life in Taiwan was a series of misfit labels. Kindergarten was a sensory tsunami. In primary school, I was seen as a stupid, disobedient, lost cause. I now know my mind wasn't wandering; it was searching for unique patterns. My dyslexia made reading a battle, and my cognitive process was a disorderly mix of thoughts, images, and three stir-fried languages.

After completing my first bachelor's degree in Taiwan, I moved to America for further education, earning a second degree in Visual Communication Design. My career was a search for purpose. After this second degree, a critical supervisor caused autistic burnout, slaughtering my passion for art. I found fitness, becoming an instructor and trainer. But when I realized my own fitness agenda was built on insecurity, I faced an existential crisis.

I transitioned to kinesiology, working for a chiropractor. There, I discovered I could pick up impressions of clients' past traumas during muscle work. I concluded, long before I found Dr. Gabor Mate's work, that thoughts and emotions directly cause physical ailments. I dove into energy healing and metaphysics, starting my own multidisciplinary clinic.

I am a natural born empath, though I had blocked this ability for decades without knowing it. While I began to regain it back in 2005, it was raw and overwhelming.

When my mother passed away in 2010, I returned to Taiwan to settle her affairs and ended up staying for three years. It was there I started a spiritual blog, which within a year reached millions and led to nationwide teaching invitations, recognizing me as a gifted spiritual teacher. This empathic sensitivity made being this recognized figure particularly challenging. While the platform was vast, being put on a pedestal was unsettling. The repetitive work was unenlivening, and I felt intensely unsafe in the sea of unpredictable intentions and fraudulent friendliness.

After stepping away from that role, a calling led me to Ireland in 2013, where I met a man I thought was the love of my life. I inherited my mother's caretaking nature, carefully engineering life to help him thrive. But the marriage became a dictator hell. He was a king demanding a slave, using verbal weaponry and physical assault. My life felt like being trapped in a coffin under rubble.

In my attempt to salvage the marriage, I studied psychology, neurobiology, and somatic healing. This further honed my empathic ability and finally showed me I was being abused. After eight years of hell, I escaped with the help of a women's refuge, only to be left broke, unhoused, and spiritually dismembered when their support abruptly ended.

Healing in West Clare was a complex journey. I used my knowledge in holistic health to reverse the damage from chronic stress and trauma. I unpacked a lifetime of pain and uncovered epigenetic patterns inherited from my parents. It was during this profound period of recovery that my empathic ability fully matured into what Carl Jung described as a sovereign empath. I not only feel people's feelings and emotions; I can now clearly perceive their entire psychological landscape, their hidden intentions, and the masks they wear. While this brings incredible clarity, it also makes interacting with people profoundly exhausting.

Through this, I rediscovered the mission with unidentifiable importance that only my subconscious had known. Sixty years of searching, learning, and practical experience culminated in a profound understanding.

Pain isn't a demon to run from. It is a road sign pointing us to deeper self-discovery.

So, how would I identify myself? Please allow me to introduce you to Sunny of West Clare.

My name is Sunny.
I'm autistic.
My special interest is in "how to human."

I possess the framework knowledge and extensive practical experience of the human multiverse.

My life's mission is to map out a navigation system that enables humans to easily explore their inner universe and personal multiverse, providing clarity and course correction strategies when needed, and ensuring each individual has the opportunity to discover and thrive from the totality of humanity within them.

Everyone else is planning their retirement at my age. I have just arrived at the starting line of my life's true mission, with all my paths now converging.